Mini-freak out

I had a mini-freak out today.  I just realized that I’m leaving in less than two weeks to live and work in Los Angeles for a month.  I mean, I’ve known for a while that I was going, but I just realized that we’re scheduled to leave in two weeks.  I’m really not sure I’m ready.  There isn’t a lot for me to do to get ready, but I’m not sure I’m mentally prepared.

Its sort of a weird situation.  My fiancee is working at a firm in LA for the summer with the possibility of being offered a job at the firm after she finishes law school next year.  Since I’ve only spent a couple of days in LA in my life, I got a 30 day assignment to work out of our office in LA to help my fiancee and I get an idea of whether we’d be happy living in LA.  Given that we’re going together, I’m not anxious about missing her, but I feel a bit weird about leaving my apt. behind for a month.  Not like its going to get lonely not having us around, but it still feels strange.  Maybe its a little bit of the control freak in me that wants to make sure things are fine around here while we’re gone.

The other thing I am a little anxious about is the fact that we’re driving out to LA.  My friancee needed to have her car out there this summer and since her first day of work is my 30th birthday we decided to make the trip or combined “get her to LA/30th birthday road trip.”  I’ve always thought driving across the country would be one of those adventure/self-discovery kinds of trips that would bring about self-evaluation and personal growth and a new wonderful outlook on life.  Given the limited time we have to make the trip, I’m not sure there’s going to be enough time for self-exploration.  We’re going to have hard days of driving broken up by days visiting family and friends in W.V., Missouri, and Denver, with a stop at the Grand Canyon thrown in for good measure.  It should be a really interesting trip, but I’m sure I’m going to be ready to be out of the car by the time we get there.

One way or the other, it should be a fun time and I’m looking forward to it.  At least I will be when I get my mind wrapped around the fact we’re leaving so soon.